Storms in Love and Friendship (Engineering Groom)

"There may be so many reasons to dislike someone, but no reason is required to love someone.”

There is nothing in this world that is wonderful than love.  Because of the wonderful feeling it can give, many of us if not all, desire every relationship to last long, either it could be a friendship love or romantic love. We love to be in love. It’s like a lightning that suddenly hit us, but instead of killing us, it  revitalize our entire system- mind, body and soul.  It strikes us in its own sweet time. Sometimes, we can barely identify what kind of love we feel towards a certain individual. Though we have many why’s, but still, we go “for a dip in the pool of sweet loving”.  We don’t even care the world coz our world is the love we have towards that special person (hmm sounds a lot like me). This is the kind of feeling that I was able to say, “The closer I am to you, the happier I am.”

Get Closer

Every relationship has its ups and downs. As what I have mentioned at some of my previous posts, “Love does not always come on easy waters.” Therefore in times of storm in our love journey, we need to speak with a  heart. We need  to get closer, to open up and if possible  seek advice from trusted people or friends.

Sharing

Reaching out to others by opening up our heart and sharing out to them our thoughts and desires- above all confide to them our problems- has lessen the heavy feeling we have inside.   All we do in reaching out is speak with a heart. When you speak with your heart, another heart listens.  

We are all journeying people in life and in love. Our journeying heart is prone to different emotions caused by the people we meet during the course of our journey. People with different colors and belief. People that could affect us in our outlook in life.

Sometime before, a friend of mine  shared his experience about his friendship towards a girl. This girl greatly affects his belief and even make him discourage to befriend with any other girls with the same course and belief as hers.  How this things happen? It all started in online friendship.  It's about the story of Ashik, an Indian friend. 


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ENGINEERING GROOM

(Ashik H. of India)


I value friendship. I had some female friends and I got close encounter with Indian girl. I was afraid to love and no one came my way, that is the truth.

Three (3) years back, I was in friendship with an engineering Indian girl. A girl who studies engineering or completed her studies. The friendship was good. She loved reading my emails. Always guided me to succeed in life to an extent. I am from India. India is going ahead with engineering.  She is a result of such ridiculous thinking of Indian government. So here we have a tons of engineering colleges and lot of these so called techs.

This girl loved my emails. We can judge a person from her emails. So I happened to know that. She wasn't my choice . She was obsessed with engineering. She was in love with me. She was afraid to tell . The friendship continued for a while. Meanwhile I got a job but it has no connection about engineering. I told the girl that I got a job. She was interested to know the nature of my job. When I told him about it, she said : "You are not having an engineering degree to be my groom". I was astonished and shocked . I never loved her, I only treat her as a friend so how come she was able to say that? she wasn't my gf. She was not a best friend of mine either. I didn't tell anything bad. I let her boast her engineering degree. I waited for an opportunity to tell her that i never loved her. Indians who study Engineering always prefer engineering degree grooms and vice versa. There is no dating system. The choice of partner is decided by their parents. Girls obey them and prefer engineering grooms as well. That opportunity came when she send her engagement photos without a subject. She would have thought that sending engagement pics in email would hurt me. So I told her that I am happy about the outcome. I even wished her all the best. At last, I had the guts in telling her that I didn't love her. I never loved her more than a friend. She was not a match for me. I   don't like her being too proud of herself and  humiliating others who has a lesser degree than her. I was happy to know she's getting married and got an engineering groom. I knew her nature of engineering obsession and choice of engineering grooms.

The friendship did not last long. I didn't show much interest after that. She did not send invite for marriage. I removed her email id and details. Though i was not in love with her, this incident affects the way I think. So I was frustrated with life, with India and Indian third world techs. So from that day on, I decided not to include any Indian techs in my friends circle and social networking sites. I am Indian, but I don't support India as well for that matter. I m proud to be global citizen. I will live up to it.


I don't want to hurt anybody in life. Life has given me hurt and got further cheated by India and Indians. Most of my indian friends didn't get me. They are too focused on themselves, too proud without considering how they  hurt others. I am not in India now, I got a job in other state and live a life as global citizen.

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I find this post a bit fragile, but I have to share this for us to ponder...
This is just a simple and common incident, but its effect to a person's mind and belief is tremendous.
Our emotion greatly affects us in love and in friendship that even lead us to blindness,
...blindness  from what is right or wrong.
We cannot be right at all times, especially when our ego is controlling us.
...ego that stained our heart,
...stain that poisons our entire being.
Imagine a life with a POISONOUS HEART? What good is there? 
We are a journeying person. It is all up to us on how to make this journey worthwhile.


For Ashik:
This post has made me think about the arrange marriage cases in  some other countries, like India.  Could it be the reason of why some others has to sacrifice their loved ones? Engineering groom to engineering bride.. so sad to know about this.    
May you find peace and love in your heart my friend<3


Thanks for posting.


~Leony Moonrose~

THINK BIG (Develop confidence)

Success is a state of mind!

THINK BIG. It’s free :)

Think that you’ll become BIG and be positive about it. 

“If you think positively, it would create a positive atmosphere which will result to a positive reaction”.

I was sitting on a rocking chair, while having my “siesta” yesterday. I was in deep thought when a scene of my kitten “Muning” got my attention. I stood up and decided to watch him keenly, but  in a split second, “Muning” jumped up attacking my nephew’s puppy that is pretty much bigger than him. I was taken aback, but amused at the same time, watching the poor puppy ran away howling.

What has triggered “Muning” to attack that puppy? 

I’m sure he knows how big that puppy is. 

Could it be:

1. He was thinking that he is big too? 

2. He knows his own ability as a cat? 

3. He believes his inner strength and trust himself that he could defeat that dog?

Oh well yeah, why not? Mind has power as they say:)

I CAN BE A TIGER

He knows that he is a CAT but he thinks and believes that he can be a TIGER. If he has doubted this fact, then he wouldn't have defeated that dog.  His thought has given him power.

So then...

- our tangible achievements

- our  reached goals

- our certificates earned

- our developed talents
... ARE THE RESULTS OF OUR THOUGHTS.

These thoughts lead to actions, actions lead to habits, and our habits are what determine our eventual character and destiny.

In order to accomplish big things, we must first develop the ability to think big. Yet, thinking big isn't enough...
We also need to think differently, talk big, believe more, act big, act now, and act consistently in order to become great and accomplish our goals and dreams in life.

We need

to have 

confidence 

in our ability...

be brave enough

to follow through!

"Know your abilities and make out the best in you".

Day to day journey

"HOLD THE KEY AND UNLOCK THE MYSTERY"

     Our life is in our hands to live. We can make plans for the day, for the year, for our future.. we set our goals of what we ought to become, we are determined to succeed.. but there is so much unknown in Life. Just keep journeying moment by moment each day with much love and peace in your heart. Then on the process, you will discover that you have unlocked the unknown and make it known.. you will realize one day that you're already at the top! What a sweet feeling of satisfaction you have, when you're on top, loved by so many, because of your greatness, in life and in love. Love not just to those who love you but also to those who hated you. Your loving heart is the key towards success! Hold the key and unlock the mystery of life... 

"LIFE IS A GIFT"

Choose life.. save life.. preserve the sanctity and integrity of life.. this battle for legalization of reproductive health bill which lead to abortion is not for us.. but a battle for our children's children... help save life.. I am sad for this ongoing fight in Philippine Congress.. pls. pray and help save life. Choose life that your children may live. 

"MY OWN SECRET GARDEN"

(you are invited)

In my garden, there is a large place for sentiment. My garden of flowers is also my garden of thoughts and dreams.. the thoughts grow as freely as the flowers, and the dreams are so beautiful... may I invite my friends to visit this garden.. and let us all try to unwind... Accompany me here. Let's talk anything.  The best kind of friend is that kind whom you can sit on a porch and swing with.. never say a word, and then walk a way feeling like it was the best conversation you ever had.

VAMPIRE's LOVE KISS

(By: Leony Moonrose)

The moonlight gleaming off her whitish skin,
The simplicity shown in her angelic smile.
A trace of yearning shines within her eyes,
And a touch of blood stains at her lips.

She smiled yeah, but looks so sad,
While waiting for the man she loved.
She's praying her love wouldn't last,
But it can’t be coz she knows, it would last tonight!

She hears him knock and knows he'll be worried..
She opens the door knowing what she must do..
She must say goodbye to her only love,
And set him free to live his normal life. 

 


As she wipes a tear that rolled down her cheek 
she said:
"my dear I do love you so, but I'm afraid I must go.
You must live your life to the fullest
enjoy I'll be with you in the end ..
Just feel me and I’ll be with the wind.

"I love you my dear and never forget it.
I’ll be in your heart and treasure you always."
And with a kiss she was gone and all that was left..
was ash and a shiver on the man’s lips..
from his lover vampire's love kiss.

Worry Not - The Poem

(By: Leony Moonrose)

Whenever I'm weary,
I say, Oh mind, never feel the same.
You must have sympathy,
 Don't ever blame.


When the rays of worry saddens me
I say, oh mind never give up  hope
After that stormy sea
the smiling sun will rise.


when I look up the shining stars at the amazing sky,
and the sweet smiling moon at night,
I smile back even if I got a sorrowful heart
Coz I know, the clouds will pass them by.


Nothing will stay in this world,
Not even my loneliness.
I cry one day, but I must stand
Because I know I am so blessed<3

My Weary Soul

"I normally do not go to temple or do not ask God for anything but I will go to church and temple to pray that you will become happy again and be happy forever".

These are the touching words from a friend across the mile.
A friend who doesn't even know me at all, but offers his prayer.
I was sitting right here, watching the rain outside, thinking about my journey in love, in confusion.
Yes, I was sitting here wondering... until these words (above) has struck me.

I did not speak much about me to anyone. Not even to my close family.
I 'd rather keep everything inside me, deep within my soul instead of sharing it out to others. What for?
I am certain that everyone has their own sentiments and difficult moments too.
So instead of sharing it, I chose to be alone.

                                                                                                                                                                                                   
Lonesome and hopeless moment..
The weather is cloudy.
My mind is foggy..
My heart is gloomy!
Many times I heard my friends saying: "Enjoy life as if it is your last day."
Many times too I told myself yes I must.
But in reality, when pain engulf me, I can't help but cry...seeking for release!

Yes, I must be happy. Thanks for the pure wish of happiness, my friend...
But please help me..
Please ask God to give me strength..
for my  soul is too weary.


I hope someday, I can give back the favor to you..
Praying for your  happiness too.

Painful Truth

Painful Moment!!..   do I have to savor this moment?

It was dark. It was raining. It was so cold. It was last night! I see no colors. It was purely black! I see nothing but darkness. I feel nothing but pain.

Pain is in love with me. You know why? because no matter how I try to ignore it ..  it doesn't leave me. Love has left me, but pain is always there, haunting me, paralyzing me.

I can't move,   I can't breath... my  life has stopped. My journey has ended. The world is unfair.. Last night,  he let the moon hides. The world doesn't want  me to see his moon.. yes, the moon.

The moon is  hiding, and forever  be hiding. I could no longer see his magnificence. He has left me. He left without even letting me see his true nature, his true identity. He has promised me to see him, but it was all a lie. He forgot his promise. He  hides himself behind the clouds, the clouds of sorrows.

How can I fly? the beauty of the cloud has gone. It's all foggy  now, protecting the moon behind it. It's all darkness!  no ray of moonlight, even just a pale moonlight.  :(

How can I walk in the darkness?
I am paralyzed,  I don't feel anything except the tears flowing out from my eyes..
tears that travel towards my sorrowful soul.
tears that makes my vision blurred...
How can I see the light? the world has taken it away from me.
Painful moment, painful truth.. the moon is only attracted to me.
He knows from the very beginning that he can't have  me but still he pursued to own me.
Was he selfish from the very beginning? He has taken everything from me.. my happiness, my heart.
Now, he has left me with a reason, LIFE HAS CHANGED.
This is the most painful phrase I heard from  him . From this phrase, from these words, everything  has turned into nothing. It means then that because of change,  all his promises, all  his feelings towards me, all the good memories,  all the happiness we shared,  has changed.
He is so smart.. yeah he is, because he has driven my life smoothly, then when the road is too slippery and  too many humps, he left me to save himself.. saying, time changes!  Time has change and along with it is his change of feeling  towards me.
Time has changed, that's why there's excuse in everything.
I am a hindrance of his future... but still I pray for him to succeed.
I will bear to bear the unbearable pain... just for him to succeed.!

I will sit here,  watching the sky, hoping the sun would come up and show to me his smile.. even just a fake smile!.