Wednesday, September 26, 2018

Which Wolf will win?

When I am into emotional state..

"I" and "myself" always have a debate.
When "I" realizes that something is shaky and should do something before its late, "myself" tries to contradict.

"I" said, "stop hindering myself. I know what am doing and I always do stuff in practical way!"
But "myself" just said, "no, you're not! Your practical ways can be bad and hurting at times.You disregard real emotion which myself is expert in dealing with!"
"I replied, "are you sure that you couldn't make bad decision out of your crazy emotion?

Both have good reasons and none of them will give-way. They are like wolves, ready to attack when  one jeopardize the other. 
Its a battle between practicality over emotion or vice versa
Career over personal relationship (mind over heart)
Love over hurt
Good intention over bad ways..

Can't they just go together and agree at one point?

This "debate of self" reminds me of the story of the two wolves. An old Cherokee Indian story. 

One evening, an old Cherokee told his grandson about a battle that goes on inside people. He said, "My son, the battle is between two wolves inside us all. It is a terrible fight and it is between two wolves. One is evil - he is anger, envy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority and ego". 
He continued...
"The other one is good - he is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion, and faith". 
The same fight is going on inside you - and inside every other person too."

The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather,
"Which wolf will win?"

The old Cherokee simply replied,

Knowing which wolf to feed is the first step towards recognizing you have control over your own self.
Its easy to say this but if we are into real situation, we couldnt really decide which one to feed,

As we come to age, we gradually become aware of the many things in the external world which are largely beyond our ability to control. Especially now that we are expose in social media or online stuff. Our emotion is at stake and its kinda hard to acccept.. but a more shocking realization is that there are many things about ourselves that we seem powerless to control. 

Wait a minute...
Is it the reason why "I" and "Myself" cannot control themselves too? and no matter how they try to get along well, still they ended up in a debate?
Jeez.. sounds scary!

What about you, arent you get scared of the fact that the wolves inside us have a never-ending fight? 

How aware are you of the two different opposing "wolves" operating within your mind and heart?

Have you ever been disappointed  by the choice of behavior because you knew that there was a more positive option but you just didnt choose it?
I been into this many times
especially in dealing with heart matters. 
I tried to feed the good wolf, the unselfish and understanding one inside me even if I ended up hurt of my decision. 

Thats how it should be
Life is just like that.

Choose to be better

I heard somebody said
"Life is stupid"
(sometimes that somebody is me)

Why cant just we say "I am stupid, or I've been stupid in my choices"
Is it that hard to admit?

We have our own choices in this what they call "stupid life".

A choice to do or not to do,
to love or not to love,
to hate or not to hate,
to accept or to decline,
to say a yes or a no..

A choice to dislike, to pretend,to control, 
a choice to sacrifice for others,to compromise...
A choice to wear mask or not to wear mask..
Choice to understand or to act dumb..

We do have our choices,
and I prefer "to understand"
... understand that everyone is wearing mask based on their priority, on their set goals..
I choose to understand that everyone has its own limits in everything, that each one has its own life...craving for survival.

The only thing  I failed to understand is,
why do people crave to be on top of everything, of why one must prove that he or she is better than the other, that one should have a name for people to remember them..
and once they get it, people say they've succeded. Whooah!! They call it success!!.
and the worst thing is...  it doesnt end up there... they crave for more, a never ending more.. of success!
Success from what?
Success for getting something which others dont have?
Success bcoz they feel proud about it? What is that for? Getting self satisfaction?
Making others envy of them?

Thats what really makes the world crazy
and making life stupid.
We complicate things and often confuses ourselves from being better ahead of others than by becoming better to attract better.
We complicate things in our hands bcoz of our desire of greatness

We can eat 3 times a day,
We have roof over us, a place to sleep on if we need rest
We have family with us
We have good simple friends
We have a simple life to live

But why we crave for greatness that complicates all, making us forget who we are, diverting ourselves to be a slave of desire of being great than the other.
Making ourselve a "somebody" by wearing a superfacial outfit "the mask".

What if we fail ?
Fail ourselves or fail the expectation of others from us
Do we get upset or get mad on situations that put us into the state of failure?
Do we have to cry?
Ok cry! Go ahead!
Cry out those stupid tears!
Yes stupid! for they are tears from stupid choices we've made!

You know what,
Its not really life that is stupid..
but people.

Stupid people craving of stupid stuff for stupid desire, hiding stupid tears in their stupid mask... 
and they call it, life.

Oh! What a life!
Are you into it?
Oh well, life is just like that.

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