If Tomorrow Comes

A lot of times in my life, I experience loneliness

I cry for no reason but empty feelings

Times when I can't feel someone's presence

I have nothing but yearning,

I searched myself within, asking why,

..is there tomorrow again?

Life's journey is a struggle,

A battle to achieve something worthwhile...

One day you're high with happiness, the next day you're down..so down that all you do is cry!

why? why it has to be this way?

.. what does tomorrow looks like?

Sometimes I just want to give up.

But then...

I begin to imagine if I didn't have these days of sadness,

then I wouldn't be able to appreciate happiness!

I believe that every journey has its end

after this night there is morning..

If tomorrow comes... I can be happy again!

It is during these moment of  sadness of the soul that I cry out his name..

that I seek him out with desperation.

If I wouldn't have these kind of days,

do you think I would seek him as much?

and if I wouldn't seek him, should I realize the value of myself?

There must be a reason from all this pain...

like there is sunshine after the rain

His absence is the greatest lesson..

to go on journeying alone..

so that someday, when I  get stumble

I can learn to move on!

 

I need to decide better today,

so that if tomorrow comes..

I won't buy back yesterday!

~originally written: Leony Moonrose ~

Show your Best Smile in the Rain

Loving the right person at the wrong time...

or having the wrong person when the time is right...

...means LETTING GO!
(even if you still want to hold on)

You're in love with someone, only to find out that you can never be together 'till the end. 

You spent your lifetime loving someone, missing him/her so badly,  putting the person at the pedestal and yet, that person walks out of your life easily. Then, in order to console yourself, you gonna say: "Everything has a reason."

You can do nothing but cry to release the pain inside... the pain of losing. 

With bloody heart, you still manage to smile..
a goodbye smile!
Staring at the person you love with smiling lips,
a crying heart, a bleeding soul reflects in your eyes!

You love the person...
yes, you love the person!
You wanted to stay forever but it can't be.

 You need to be okay... you must be okay!
and let the world see that everything is fine!
That all is well (as you usually post on your facebook status)
wear a smile... even a painful one. 
After all, wearing a smile is easy than explaining why you are sad. So give your best smile even if behind it is an aching soul.
A smile is easy to form just to hide the pain. You start playing the art of "pretending", pretend that all is sunny day even if it rains.

You can do it, yes you can...
Try to hide the dark clouds through your smile;
and when the rain of tears start to fall from your eyes,
turn your head, back away and run... run as fast as you could,
in a corner of no place, and there you shout out loud with no voice,
praying for the rain to wash away the pain in your soul.

You let the person go...
but the memories remains with you.
It may tear your heart apart,
but it strengthen your soul and  teach you how and where to start!

Walk on, yes walk on...
start to pick up the broken pieces of you as you journey on!
congratulate yourself for love was  with you, and is always in you.
It is better to love, then lost that love than never to love at all!

Start to understand that most relationships tend to fail not because of the absence of love, but because love is always present. It's just that one was being loved too much, and the other was being loved too little. Most often, we fall in love with the person we think we love, but to only discover that for them we are just for past times. While the one who truly loves us remains either our friend or a stranger.

Life is ironic ...

Ironic in the sense that in spite of the fact that love strives in hurting, you  still risk for Love. 

You console yourself by sticking the belief that if you don't get hurt, then you won't learn how to love. You even find beauty in it.  the  beauty of loving despite of pain. You console yourself by telling: "Love doesn't hurt all the time"; though the hurting is there to test you, to help you grow.

Love is a painful risk. 

To love means that risk must be taken, 

no matter how scary or painful, 

for only then  will you experience

 the fullness of humanity 

of what we call LOVE. 

If you're not ready to cry, if you're not ready to take the risk , and if you're not ready to feel the pain, then you're not ready to fall in love. It takes an individual to have the courage.       

Start to appreciate the rain...

from the heavy clouds of pain.

Someday, you gonna be okay, yes you gonna be okay;

and let that SOMEDAY  BE TODAY!

                       

written by: Leony  Moonrose

TREASURE HUNTING

Let us  imagine that....

...  the treasure called LIFE - life at its best, life as life was meant to be... is hidden on a great mountain peak.  

A path leads to it, and we are gathered at the starting point below. 

We are going to seek this treasure TOGETHER. 

The time has come to begin. The prospects are hopeful and we are eager to be off. 





Before we begin our journey, however, we need to know something about the path ahead. 

What path do we gonna take?

-Is it long and winding path?
-Or a desert-like one ?
-A scary and slippery path? 

Most likely, we travel a different path.  

It could be a scary and slippery path when our day is full of anticipation, and fragile or sensitive moment of life given events; It could also be a desert-like path when during the course of our journey we are carrying heavy baggage, such as problems and tribulations that made our journey rough; Or it could be a long and winding path wherein the journey seems endless, and yet whatever curves ahead, still we are very much hopeful that at the end of it is the rising sun,  promising hope. 

In order to survive in this journey, in order to climb up the mountain to get the hidden treasure, for us to be able to get the "gold", we need a clear sound philosophy of life. We need to understand that Life is being truly human. 

But what is it that makes a human being?

     - Well,  as far as I'm concern, It's not whether we have money or not. 

     - It's not whether we have a home and family or not

     - It's not what we all ask  and get immediate answers

     - It's not about what job we do or if we do have a job or none

     ... but it's far better than that !

It's not even about the pain we experienced at the hospital or the hurt we get from missing or losing a dear one.. It's not all about that!! 

     ... It is what is inside - it's what a friend of mine calls the heart. It's what we always read on fb status about "speak with a heart", "use your heart". In other words, it's the TRUTH, the CORE, the real person inside a hurting friend, a real  person inside a prostitute,  inside the criminal, inside the greed people. 

     

     ... It is the real person inside ME and the real person inside YOU. We are all different being with different race and culture from different part of the globe, but we have one common in us, THE HEART (the real gold).

We hunt for treasure, we go for the gold. We do not acknowledge that the real treasure, the priceless gold is inside us.

People are blinded of the real treasure because of the notion that the real treasure is success. 

You do not understand that the real treasure...  the real gold is right where you are, and that is being truly human. 
 

Because most of us are blinded, we tend to seek the treasure at the mountain peak. 
Now, we are at the starting point of this treasure hunting. 
We are at the foot of the mountain, getting ready to climb up and get the treasure that is hidden at the peak of it.. the so called LIFE' SUCCESS.

" To WIN 

is to accept who you are

To SUCCEED

is to know what you really WANT"

Good luck with your journey!

Written: ~Leony Moonrose~ 

Storms in Love and Friendship (Engineering Groom)

"There may be so many reasons to dislike someone, but no reason is required to love someone.”

There is nothing in this world that is wonderful than love.  Because of the wonderful feeling it can give, many of us if not all, desire every relationship to last long, either it could be a friendship love or romantic love. We love to be in love. It’s like a lightning that suddenly hit us, but instead of killing us, it  revitalize our entire system- mind, body and soul.  It strikes us in its own sweet time. Sometimes, we can barely identify what kind of love we feel towards a certain individual. Though we have many why’s, but still, we go “for a dip in the pool of sweet loving”.  We don’t even care the world coz our world is the love we have towards that special person (hmm sounds a lot like me). This is the kind of feeling that I was able to say, “The closer I am to you, the happier I am.”

Get Closer

Every relationship has its ups and downs. As what I have mentioned at some of my previous posts, “Love does not always come on easy waters.” Therefore in times of storm in our love journey, we need to speak with a  heart. We need  to get closer, to open up and if possible  seek advice from trusted people or friends.

Sharing

Reaching out to others by opening up our heart and sharing out to them our thoughts and desires- above all confide to them our problems- has lessen the heavy feeling we have inside.   All we do in reaching out is speak with a heart. When you speak with your heart, another heart listens.  

We are all journeying people in life and in love. Our journeying heart is prone to different emotions caused by the people we meet during the course of our journey. People with different colors and belief. People that could affect us in our outlook in life.

Sometime before, a friend of mine  shared his experience about his friendship towards a girl. This girl greatly affects his belief and even make him discourage to befriend with any other girls with the same course and belief as hers.  How this things happen? It all started in online friendship.  It's about the story of Ashik, an Indian friend. 


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ENGINEERING GROOM

(Ashik H. of India)


I value friendship. I had some female friends and I got close encounter with Indian girl. I was afraid to love and no one came my way, that is the truth.

Three (3) years back, I was in friendship with an engineering Indian girl. A girl who studies engineering or completed her studies. The friendship was good. She loved reading my emails. Always guided me to succeed in life to an extent. I am from India. India is going ahead with engineering.  She is a result of such ridiculous thinking of Indian government. So here we have a tons of engineering colleges and lot of these so called techs.

This girl loved my emails. We can judge a person from her emails. So I happened to know that. She wasn't my choice . She was obsessed with engineering. She was in love with me. She was afraid to tell . The friendship continued for a while. Meanwhile I got a job but it has no connection about engineering. I told the girl that I got a job. She was interested to know the nature of my job. When I told him about it, she said : "You are not having an engineering degree to be my groom". I was astonished and shocked . I never loved her, I only treat her as a friend so how come she was able to say that? she wasn't my gf. She was not a best friend of mine either. I didn't tell anything bad. I let her boast her engineering degree. I waited for an opportunity to tell her that i never loved her. Indians who study Engineering always prefer engineering degree grooms and vice versa. There is no dating system. The choice of partner is decided by their parents. Girls obey them and prefer engineering grooms as well. That opportunity came when she send her engagement photos without a subject. She would have thought that sending engagement pics in email would hurt me. So I told her that I am happy about the outcome. I even wished her all the best. At last, I had the guts in telling her that I didn't love her. I never loved her more than a friend. She was not a match for me. I   don't like her being too proud of herself and  humiliating others who has a lesser degree than her. I was happy to know she's getting married and got an engineering groom. I knew her nature of engineering obsession and choice of engineering grooms.

The friendship did not last long. I didn't show much interest after that. She did not send invite for marriage. I removed her email id and details. Though i was not in love with her, this incident affects the way I think. So I was frustrated with life, with India and Indian third world techs. So from that day on, I decided not to include any Indian techs in my friends circle and social networking sites. I am Indian, but I don't support India as well for that matter. I m proud to be global citizen. I will live up to it.


I don't want to hurt anybody in life. Life has given me hurt and got further cheated by India and Indians. Most of my indian friends didn't get me. They are too focused on themselves, too proud without considering how they  hurt others. I am not in India now, I got a job in other state and live a life as global citizen.

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I find this post a bit fragile, but I have to share this for us to ponder...
This is just a simple and common incident, but its effect to a person's mind and belief is tremendous.
Our emotion greatly affects us in love and in friendship that even lead us to blindness,
...blindness  from what is right or wrong.
We cannot be right at all times, especially when our ego is controlling us.
...ego that stained our heart,
...stain that poisons our entire being.
Imagine a life with a POISONOUS HEART? What good is there? 
We are a journeying person. It is all up to us on how to make this journey worthwhile.


For Ashik:
This post has made me think about the arrange marriage cases in  some other countries, like India.  Could it be the reason of why some others has to sacrifice their loved ones? Engineering groom to engineering bride.. so sad to know about this.    
May you find peace and love in your heart my friend<3


Thanks for posting.


~Leony Moonrose~

THINK BIG (Develop confidence)

Success is a state of mind!

THINK BIG. It’s free :)

Think that you’ll become BIG and be positive about it. 

“If you think positively, it would create a positive atmosphere which will result to a positive reaction”.

I was sitting on a rocking chair, while having my “siesta” yesterday. I was in deep thought when a scene of my kitten “Muning” got my attention. I stood up and decided to watch him keenly, but  in a split second, “Muning” jumped up attacking my nephew’s puppy that is pretty much bigger than him. I was taken aback, but amused at the same time, watching the poor puppy ran away howling.

What has triggered “Muning” to attack that puppy? 

I’m sure he knows how big that puppy is. 

Could it be:

1. He was thinking that he is big too? 

2. He knows his own ability as a cat? 

3. He believes his inner strength and trust himself that he could defeat that dog?

Oh well yeah, why not? Mind has power as they say:)

I CAN BE A TIGER

He knows that he is a CAT but he thinks and believes that he can be a TIGER. If he has doubted this fact, then he wouldn't have defeated that dog.  His thought has given him power.

So then...

- our tangible achievements

- our  reached goals

- our certificates earned

- our developed talents
... ARE THE RESULTS OF OUR THOUGHTS.

These thoughts lead to actions, actions lead to habits, and our habits are what determine our eventual character and destiny.

In order to accomplish big things, we must first develop the ability to think big. Yet, thinking big isn't enough...
We also need to think differently, talk big, believe more, act big, act now, and act consistently in order to become great and accomplish our goals and dreams in life.

We need

to have 

confidence 

in our ability...

be brave enough

to follow through!

"Know your abilities and make out the best in you".

Day to day journey

"HOLD THE KEY AND UNLOCK THE MYSTERY"

     Our life is in our hands to live. We can make plans for the day, for the year, for our future.. we set our goals of what we ought to become, we are determined to succeed.. but there is so much unknown in Life. Just keep journeying moment by moment each day with much love and peace in your heart. Then on the process, you will discover that you have unlocked the unknown and make it known.. you will realize one day that you're already at the top! What a sweet feeling of satisfaction you have, when you're on top, loved by so many, because of your greatness, in life and in love. Love not just to those who love you but also to those who hated you. Your loving heart is the key towards success! Hold the key and unlock the mystery of life... 

"LIFE IS A GIFT"

Choose life.. save life.. preserve the sanctity and integrity of life.. this battle for legalization of reproductive health bill which lead to abortion is not for us.. but a battle for our children's children... help save life.. I am sad for this ongoing fight in Philippine Congress.. pls. pray and help save life. Choose life that your children may live. 

"MY OWN SECRET GARDEN"

(you are invited)

In my garden, there is a large place for sentiment. My garden of flowers is also my garden of thoughts and dreams.. the thoughts grow as freely as the flowers, and the dreams are so beautiful... may I invite my friends to visit this garden.. and let us all try to unwind... Accompany me here. Let's talk anything.  The best kind of friend is that kind whom you can sit on a porch and swing with.. never say a word, and then walk a way feeling like it was the best conversation you ever had.

VAMPIRE's LOVE KISS

(By: Leony Moonrose)

The moonlight gleaming off her whitish skin,
The simplicity shown in her angelic smile.
A trace of yearning shines within her eyes,
And a touch of blood stains at her lips.

She smiled yeah, but looks so sad,
While waiting for the man she loved.
She's praying her love wouldn't last,
But it can’t be coz she knows, it would last tonight!

She hears him knock and knows he'll be worried..
She opens the door knowing what she must do..
She must say goodbye to her only love,
And set him free to live his normal life. 

 


As she wipes a tear that rolled down her cheek 
she said:
"my dear I do love you so, but I'm afraid I must go.
You must live your life to the fullest
enjoy I'll be with you in the end ..
Just feel me and I’ll be with the wind.

"I love you my dear and never forget it.
I’ll be in your heart and treasure you always."
And with a kiss she was gone and all that was left..
was ash and a shiver on the man’s lips..
from his lover vampire's love kiss.