Day to day journey

"HOLD THE KEY AND UNLOCK THE MYSTERY"

     Our life is in our hands to live. We can make plans for the day, for the year, for our future.. we set our goals of what we ought to become, we are determined to succeed.. but there is so much unknown in Life. Just keep journeying moment by moment each day with much love and peace in your heart. Then on the process, you will discover that you have unlocked the unknown and make it known.. you will realize one day that you're already at the top! What a sweet feeling of satisfaction you have, when you're on top, loved by so many, because of your greatness, in life and in love. Love not just to those who love you but also to those who hated you. Your loving heart is the key towards success! Hold the key and unlock the mystery of life... 

"LIFE IS A GIFT"

Choose life.. save life.. preserve the sanctity and integrity of life.. this battle for legalization of reproductive health bill which lead to abortion is not for us.. but a battle for our children's children... help save life.. I am sad for this ongoing fight in Philippine Congress.. pls. pray and help save life. Choose life that your children may live. 

"MY OWN SECRET GARDEN"

(you are invited)

In my garden, there is a large place for sentiment. My garden of flowers is also my garden of thoughts and dreams.. the thoughts grow as freely as the flowers, and the dreams are so beautiful... may I invite my friends to visit this garden.. and let us all try to unwind... Accompany me here. Let's talk anything.  The best kind of friend is that kind whom you can sit on a porch and swing with.. never say a word, and then walk a way feeling like it was the best conversation you ever had.

VAMPIRE's LOVE KISS

(By: Leony Moonrose)

The moonlight gleaming off her whitish skin,
The simplicity shown in her angelic smile.
A trace of yearning shines within her eyes,
And a touch of blood stains at her lips.

She smiled yeah, but looks so sad,
While waiting for the man she loved.
She's praying her love wouldn't last,
But it can’t be coz she knows, it would last tonight!

She hears him knock and knows he'll be worried..
She opens the door knowing what she must do..
She must say goodbye to her only love,
And set him free to live his normal life. 

 


As she wipes a tear that rolled down her cheek 
she said:
"my dear I do love you so, but I'm afraid I must go.
You must live your life to the fullest
enjoy I'll be with you in the end ..
Just feel me and I’ll be with the wind.

"I love you my dear and never forget it.
I’ll be in your heart and treasure you always."
And with a kiss she was gone and all that was left..
was ash and a shiver on the man’s lips..
from his lover vampire's love kiss.

Worry Not - The Poem

(By: Leony Moonrose)

Whenever I'm weary,
I say, Oh mind, never feel the same.
You must have sympathy,
 Don't ever blame.


When the rays of worry saddens me
I say, oh mind never give up  hope
After that stormy sea
the smiling sun will rise.


when I look up the shining stars at the amazing sky,
and the sweet smiling moon at night,
I smile back even if I got a sorrowful heart
Coz I know, the clouds will pass them by.


Nothing will stay in this world,
Not even my loneliness.
I cry one day, but I must stand
Because I know I am so blessed<3

My Weary Soul

"I normally do not go to temple or do not ask God for anything but I will go to church and temple to pray that you will become happy again and be happy forever".

These are the touching words from a friend across the mile.
A friend who doesn't even know me at all, but offers his prayer.
I was sitting right here, watching the rain outside, thinking about my journey in love, in confusion.
Yes, I was sitting here wondering... until these words (above) has struck me.

I did not speak much about me to anyone. Not even to my close family.
I 'd rather keep everything inside me, deep within my soul instead of sharing it out to others. What for?
I am certain that everyone has their own sentiments and difficult moments too.
So instead of sharing it, I chose to be alone.

                                                                                                                                                                                                   
Lonesome and hopeless moment..
The weather is cloudy.
My mind is foggy..
My heart is gloomy!
Many times I heard my friends saying: "Enjoy life as if it is your last day."
Many times too I told myself yes I must.
But in reality, when pain engulf me, I can't help but cry...seeking for release!

Yes, I must be happy. Thanks for the pure wish of happiness, my friend...
But please help me..
Please ask God to give me strength..
for my  soul is too weary.


I hope someday, I can give back the favor to you..
Praying for your  happiness too.

Painful Truth

Painful Moment!!..   do I have to savor this moment?

It was dark. It was raining. It was so cold. It was last night! I see no colors. It was purely black! I see nothing but darkness. I feel nothing but pain.

Pain is in love with me. You know why? because no matter how I try to ignore it ..  it doesn't leave me. Love has left me, but pain is always there, haunting me, paralyzing me.

I can't move,   I can't breath... my  life has stopped. My journey has ended. The world is unfair.. Last night,  he let the moon hides. The world doesn't want  me to see his moon.. yes, the moon.

The moon is  hiding, and forever  be hiding. I could no longer see his magnificence. He has left me. He left without even letting me see his true nature, his true identity. He has promised me to see him, but it was all a lie. He forgot his promise. He  hides himself behind the clouds, the clouds of sorrows.

How can I fly? the beauty of the cloud has gone. It's all foggy  now, protecting the moon behind it. It's all darkness!  no ray of moonlight, even just a pale moonlight.  :(

How can I walk in the darkness?
I am paralyzed,  I don't feel anything except the tears flowing out from my eyes..
tears that travel towards my sorrowful soul.
tears that makes my vision blurred...
How can I see the light? the world has taken it away from me.
Painful moment, painful truth.. the moon is only attracted to me.
He knows from the very beginning that he can't have  me but still he pursued to own me.
Was he selfish from the very beginning? He has taken everything from me.. my happiness, my heart.
Now, he has left me with a reason, LIFE HAS CHANGED.
This is the most painful phrase I heard from  him . From this phrase, from these words, everything  has turned into nothing. It means then that because of change,  all his promises, all  his feelings towards me, all the good memories,  all the happiness we shared,  has changed.
He is so smart.. yeah he is, because he has driven my life smoothly, then when the road is too slippery and  too many humps, he left me to save himself.. saying, time changes!  Time has change and along with it is his change of feeling  towards me.
Time has changed, that's why there's excuse in everything.
I am a hindrance of his future... but still I pray for him to succeed.
I will bear to bear the unbearable pain... just for him to succeed.!

I will sit here,  watching the sky, hoping the sun would come up and show to me his smile.. even just a fake smile!.  

THE HARD DAYS

      "Restore within me the integrity of heart that will not be shaken by any storms.., that no matter how hard my days are, still I will stand firm."

     It was a hot weather on that particular day, November 30, 2011, yet I didn't mind the heat. In fact, I was feeling cold inside. I was feeling blue and my entire being was like a robot after I left my computer with a  heavy heart. I decided to visit my friend after a stroll at my favorite mountain peak.  This is what I usually do every time I got a heavy feeling. To spend sometime to unwind.

     Little did I know, that day would give my life an abrupt twist. As I maneuvered my motorbike, I noticed him: "A big man with a mustache. He's approaching towards my direction and before I knew it, He was blocking my way.

     "Give me the key!" he demanded.

I screamed. I didn't move, holding on to my keys tightly. Desperate, he straightened up and pulled something out of his pocket, omg  a knife!!

     "I will kill you!, he  hissed pointing the knife at me.

     I couldn't cry, I closed my eyes and prayed aloud, speaking words only God could understand. And soon, at one point during the most terrifying moment, somehow, I was certain I would not die. I didn't know what happened, maybe confused by the sound I made, the man began cursing and then in a second he dashed to the street and jumped into a passing vehicle. He was gone. omg how did it happen? I was shivering when I left that place heading towards my friend's house.

     She wasn't there when I arrived at our rendevouz (our hiding place when we need to unwind). I went straight to her study room. Still full of energy, I grabbed her guitar and played a praise song. While I was plucking and humming the song, the hurtful realization of a relationship, the heavy feeling of the emotional distress I had for the day and that horrible incident flashed back my mind. It was towards the middle of the song that I broke into tears. I tried as much as I can to stand strong, to maintain a happy aura, but right that very moment, I gave in to tears!. Very much thankful that along my journey, He is always there, protecting me. Praise Him.

HOW DO I LOVE A PERSON

      This is the kind of question I often ask from myself. A question that always gives me a flashback of how life has treated me, of how I journey my life in the course of love... yesterday and today!

My love is a gift to myself and to you

With much love in the heart, I sometimes feel the need to escape the harsh realities of the world. I want only happiness, even magical happiness.  I often go to the mountain peak to complete my fantasy trip. I call it my magical love fantasy. It makes me more joyful than anything else. To savor the word love.

When it comes to love, I'm maybe blind! lol..coz I just love to be in love and am willing to sacrifice everything for it. I am extremely devoted and even find myself ignoring my partner shortcomings. Being in love is one way for me to go beyond reality and escape the ordinary everyday world. It makes me feel alive yeah.. especially when I heard that my loved one is present with me. It allows my spirit to soar. Some people say I'm an incurable romantic, capable of being swept off to fantasy land. Well, they maybe right, however, I'm deeply spiritual and don't take relationships or sex lightly. 

I am highly affectionate and easy to please, and appreciate the efforts of others especially the effort of the person I love. I want to know that I am loved and so I prefer someone who is loving, sensitive and demonstrative to be at my side. I give unselfishly of myself to others, but sometimes run the risk of losing my own identity in the process. I am quite aware of it though.. but I tolerate it sometimes, coz what I really looking for is a special connection with someone I feel will accept and understand me. Life feels shallow and dry to me when romance is missing  awww lol.. – so I'm eager to take the plunge. Always take the risk.. but I must be careful though… sometimes I'm so keen to be romantically connected that I dive in too quickly and find myself connected to someone unsuitable.Why unsuitable? because the someone cannot meet my expectation. I must be on guard of my feelings too, I hope. This is how I am journeying in love <3

My love is a gift simply wrapped for my loved one to easily open up.  Haayyy buhayy, parang life :)