When I am into emotional state..
"I" and "myself" always have a debate.
When "I" realizes that something is shaky and should do something before its late, "myself" tries to contradict.
"I" said, "stop hindering myself. I know what am doing and I always do stuff in practical way!"
But "myself" just said, "no, you're not! Your practical ways can be bad and hurting at times.You disregard real emotion which myself is expert in dealing with!"
"I replied, "are you sure that you couldn't make bad decision out of your crazy emotion?
Both have good reasons and none of them will give-way. They are like wolves, ready to attack when one jeopardize the other.
Its a battle between practicality over emotion or vice versa
Career over personal relationship (mind over heart)
Love over hurt
Good intention over bad ways..
Can't they just go together and agree at one point?
This "debate of self" reminds me of the story of the two wolves. An old Cherokee Indian story.
One evening, an old Cherokee told his grandson about a battle that goes on inside people. He said, "My son, the battle is between two wolves inside us all. It is a terrible fight and it is between two wolves. One is evil - he is anger, envy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority and ego".
"The other one is good - he is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion, and faith".
The same fight is going on inside you - and inside every other person too."
The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather,
"Which wolf will win?"
The old Cherokee simply replied,
"THE ONE YOU FEED".
Knowing which wolf to feed is the first step towards recognizing you have control over your own self.
Its easy to say this but if we are into real situation, we couldnt really decide which one to feed,
As we come to age, we gradually become aware of the many things in the external world which are largely beyond our ability to control. Especially now that we are expose in social media or online stuff. Our emotion is at stake and its kinda hard to acccept.. but a more shocking realization is that there are many things about ourselves that we seem powerless to control.
Wait a minute...
Is it the reason why "I" and "Myself" cannot control themselves too? and no matter how they try to get along well, still they ended up in a debate?
Jeez.. sounds scary!
What about you, arent you get scared of the fact that the wolves inside us have a never-ending fight?
How aware are you of the two different opposing "wolves" operating within your mind and heart?
Have you ever been disappointed by the choice of behavior because you knew that there was a more positive option but you just didnt choose it?
I been into this many times
especially in dealing with heart matters.
I tried to feed the good wolf, the unselfish and understanding one inside me even if I ended up hurt of my decision.
Thats how it should be
Life is just like that.